What You See Is Not Always What You Get

11:11 PM Eunnah 0 Comments


As I leisurely walk along a seemingly empty park, I hear the subtle whisper of the cool breeze as it blows my hair and passes through the row of trees, making their branches sway delicately. I hear the crisp sound of leaves and the crunch of gravel as the wheels of the jeepneys roll over the asphalt, the slow rumble of engine in sync with nature. This is probably one of the most relaxing experiences I’ve had. The beauty of nature has me utterly distracted from my unending list of predicaments. I have nothing in mind. Hence, no stress!
I took a deep breath as my lips curl into a smile. At that moment, I have uncovered how freedom felt mentally and physically. As I look around, I realized that the sun has decided to come out and make the weather even more humid. Nevertheless, I continued my stroll. Perspiration has finally conquered my entire skin. With the sun still burning, I tried wiping my arms. I squint as the playful rays of sunlight catches my eye; when all of a sudden, it was gone. As I look up, I see the magnificent sculpture above me—the Oblation.
Right there and then, everything came rushing back to me: The application forms, the degree programs, my grades, the upcoming exams and interviews, the battle in who gets the slots. Generally speaking, the requirements I need to accomplish for transfer. I am not here to have a vacation and appreciate the scenery. I am not here to have fun.

I AM HERE FOR A REASON

As many people know, University of the Philippines has always been my dream school. As I child, I used to go there all the time for a visit. But even when I’m already inside the campus, riding the ikot and going inside buildings, I’m still an outsider. I can only admire the beauty of UP from afar. Practicing what UP students experience and do is not good enough for me.
I wanted to know what it is like inside. I wanted to be called an “Iskolar ng bayan,” a legitimate UP student. Perhaps, that was the reason why I was given that one-time opportunity to see and experience for myself what it is like to study in the most prestigious University in the Phlippines; I wanted it way too much.
But mind you, what I saw inside was nothing alike from what I knew and saw from the outside.
Everything is ugly up close.
(To be continued…)
20150616 | 11:11 PM

0 comments:

Debut 101

11:28 AM Eunnah 0 Comments


I can’t believe how fast time flies. Five years back, my parents used to talk about my 18thbirthday and all I could think of was, “Pfft. That would be decades from now!” (Well, what would you expect from a twelve year-old girl?)
But who am I kidding? This is time we’re talking about. And we know time. No matter how loud we shout at her, she just wouldn’t listen. She’s too busy running and screwing everyone!
CURSE YOU, TIME!
Anyway, my point is, this is just surreal. My 18th self—just a few months away. Who would have thought I’d reach my legal age?
In preparation for that, I’ve been looking for debut ideas the past few weeks. I’m telling you, this is an improvement! I’ve been thinking for months. Now, I’m looking. HAHA!
Of course, I want my character to shine through. I want other people to realize that it’s not just another teenager celebrating her 18th birthday. I want to show them that it’s not just any other debut. It’s MY debut.
The solution, of course, is a unique theme.
A theme that reflects me, expresses me.

A THEME THAT SHOUTS WHO I AM

So what is the perfect theme? To answer that, perhaps I need to go back to square one and remind myself over my obsessions and weird fetishes. In other words, my ‘likes’ and ‘loves.’ Haha.
  1. Books – Literature will always be a part of who I am. Just seeing the countless words all bundled up in a leaf is invigorating. The scent of newly-printed books is the best part. Mmmm.
  2. Flowers – Need I say more? I am in love with spring. Nature grows on me.
  3. Panda – Cuteness overload! What more? Black and white—classic!
  4. Musical Instruments – Guitar and piano to be exact; basically because I can play them. Thus, they best represent my passion in music.
  5. Ship-related stuff – The wheel (?I’m not really sure what the term is), compass and anchor. They are symbols that represent the convictions that I have which encourage and help me sail through life.
  6. (Obsession still in process..)
Whew! That’s it, I guess. I’ve racked my head far too much. I’ll just modify this post as soon as my mind refreshes.
So, any suggestions?

20150607

0 comments:

Subscribe to: Posts (Atom)